Project Me

I have never seen myself as one with a passion for projects.

Yet on reflection I realise I often have a relationship project brewing away.

My recent project history looks something like this:

Project find someone to spend the rest of my life with - DONE

Project swan around as a blissfully happy couple - DONE

Project have a fur-baby - DONE 

Project get pregnant and have child - DONE

Project avoiding disappearing into the hopeless depths of darkness - CONTINUING 

Project try to have another child - FAILED SPECTACULARLY

Project I quit sugar - CONTINUING

My 2014 project is Project Me.  It's about me making a commitment to the relationship I have with myself.   Many moons ago in my first experience of therapy my therapist would talk again and again about working/improving 'the relationship with yourself'. I honestly had absolutely no idea what she was talking about. Session after session I would simply smile and nod my head in agreement - I was a major people pleaser even in therapy - and think to myself  'what on earth is she talking about?!?!'

(Note: if you do not understand what your therapist is saying TELL THEM. In fact if you don't understand anything that anyone says to you TELL THEM!)

Project Me (currently) comprises of four components:

1. Meditate daily
2. Eat clean
3. Move more
4. Have fun

It's a process. It's a framework from which I am trying to make choices and decisions. I imagine this project will see me through to the end of 2014 and many years beyond. I now have both an emotional and intellectual understanding of those words my therapist spoke to me all those years ago. And I realise for me to take on any new projects in the future I need to have a rock solid foundation in Project Me first. 

I have an everyday religion that works for me. Love yourself first, and everything else falls into line - Lucille Ball